Fuck break-ups

I'm pissed off now. Forget my blog entry bout the usual, james break-up stuff. I feel stupid for not trying hard enough. I hate myself for crying, panicking more than I thought and talked. Hell yes, I'm not gonna try and get over him. we've been together like more than nine months and he breaks up for two of those months that were bad. caused totally by outside factors. I e-mailed him just now, answered his reply, and sent two more. This is a challenge now, and I'm taking it seriously. I'm not gonna relax til I'm with him again. ANd if everything doesn't work, then I'll accept the fact that we truly are broken up. Fuck break-ups. I'm gonna have to hold writing pleasant poems...I'm in a challenge now. wish me luck.