the green-eyed monster

i e-mailed james. i told him the naked truth. that i was more Envious than Jealous. I am the green-eyed monster. I am a sore loser. I cannot accept failures. I just gave up information only my imaginary self knows. I want him back so badly. But now, I can actually accept it more easily, I know now it's my fault. I messed up james because of my envy.I miss him so much. I love him so much. I hope above all hopes that he'll reconsider.pray for me. James is the best thing that EVER happened in my life. the best thing. And I want to make it up to him. I need him. I love him.