so this is it. my first blog for the new and improved russ, the one that knows better. hehe. ooh! i have to visit dustine's web site, visit this site if you wanna see dustine's anime rendition of myself at www.geocities.com/disruptive_camouflage. I'm gonna do some defragmentation and some cleaning up both of my room and my head. HAhay...I'm gonna miss sex though...how shall I do this? crap, maybe I will meet someone, whatever God presents me with. I know when I know. Hahay...life. Got some things to do. got some things to try. i wanna get out of the Philippines after my Fine Arts course. My paintings will be more narcissistic, more centered to myself and I dunno basta I 'll do art to send what message I need to send. Fuck. WHat if james will be a judge in mindworks? FUCK. but he'll have to see me and shrink. I'll give him the coldest shoulder in the world. THis is revenge. No talking. I won't know him. won't validate him. won't acknowledge his presence, his existence. No james or be hurt. Fuck him, I want to say that, maybe I mean it, maybe I won't. My head is screwed up, warlah pa kaau...later I'll think more clearly....later...give me time to heal......and forget..................in the meantime, warlah sa ko! WARLAH!
