So I did, I talked to chris. Of course, we talked about james. NOw I'm disturbed. Vera thinks I'm crazy..I'm like a cartoon character now..laughing...talking...making faces...funny ideas...DEFENSE MECHANISMS. Chris said i should NOT wait AT All... But it's a month or two break diba? We didn't really break up did we? We're supposed to wait out a whole month or two so when we talk again, we won't be fighting anymore! I dunno. I just miss him. I miss him sooo much. So much to tell him. Dreams to share. Achievements to brag about. Sexual discoveries. I miss him. i wanna hear his voice. His tired voice. I wanna see him...his childish smile. I wanna hear his complaints. I wanna hear him brag. i wanna hear him rant about work. I wann hear his kiss. I wanna see him smile. I wanna see him. I wanna be with him. Sometimes I wish that we're just having one of those fights where we can forget about what we fought about and just make up. Not caring coz we miss each other so much. Crap. Sayang. Sayang. Sayang. When Chris and I talked, Randy comes and sits beside me. Too late. James didn't reply yet. The e-mail i sent him about the invites. Maybe He's sticking to the deal. Maybe i was like pushing him. Well, one of the invites was his, and I got one too, and I want to watch it with him. If he doesn't he'll do whatever he wants to do with it. Watch the concert alone or give it to somebody else. I miss him. Mao ra. Screw everything else. Now I remember why I wanted to be with him.
