Hello blog. I am 80% done with my finals. Hew! My classmates are here, typing their asses off!!!hahaha It's good to be on time. Now I got nothing to do as far as my art majors are concerned. I think I did a good job. I did a painting of a Tang Dynasty Sancai(three-color glazed) horse for my Chinese motif art and an abstraction of blue and secondary colors and red. My work was nice and I actually painted realistically...a schoolmate said it was a "fighter"...cool. I have approval from the masses...hehe. I'm feeling kinda ok...I hope James is ok too. I hope everyone's ok. I wish I can download pics of my art here. Dunno how, don't even have decent pictures yet. GOnna tell James when we get to talk. Maybe I can ask help from him. I miss him.. as usual. If think about what he said I get angry...I get hurt...but now i miss him too much to care. I hope one month just goes by. crap. it's our semestral break next week. that's gonna hurt. No classes. I'll probably go crazy over the missing. I hope not. I hope he texts out of nowhere and asks to see me. Wish ko lang. The only thing I have to really worry about is my communications 3 speech...my speech? "the dangers of tradition and conformity towards identity"....I guess it's self explanatory to bloggers....bloggers are non-conventional, but that's just me. anyway, it's raining. I managed to get up the roof last night. I shed quiet tears of missing. pathetic. I talked to God. He was real quiet too. No stars just clouds and silence. yesterday I thought: James remembers every fuck-up i do or we do but forgets everything else about me or us, everything good. I hope that changes. I hope I didn't have to write that coz when he reads this, he'll think I'm petty and sad again. Well I'm sober. Not sad, not happy...just apathetic and alive. well, not really, I feel kind ok right now....maybe apathetic to this thing between us. ..trying...aahhhhh basta. My classmates are still typing, researching, and I'm here blogging...hehe...excellence pays... Didn't text randy...told chris i wanted to hang out with him...tomorrow he says. I think Me and my ka-brews are going drinking tonight... I hope I won't get drunk...well I'm supposed to be drunk ..I'm supposed to forget james for even just a while and not be hurt. I'm cool. I hope nothing bad happens...I hope I don't get a mood swing....
