CRAP!!!!My grades only ranged from 1.75-2.0!!! crap.crap.crap. All the while I thought I'd get really high marks. I feel cheated. I feel I deserve more. Especially in Art History! Crap! I should've taken the final exam even if I was exempted! crap! Liyo's says at least my concerns are higher. but still, I worked hard, I thought I heard some good stuff, I thought I did excellent, I did my job as a student!!!AAAHHHHH! CRAPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well anyway,
it's james' birthday today. I greeted him. hope he's happy now...now, that no one's bothering him. I dunno na-unsa nato siya.
and I'll stop before this post will become all about him.
Obviously.... I saw Liyo!!! I thought I was the only brews fellow left here! he's gonna have my clearance signed...i've an outstanding balance...75 for the resin 15 for the I dunno..and 150 for the pink shirt.
I'm leaving tomorrow dawn for Bacolod...I'm actually nervous. I've never been there before and I don't know anything about the place.
Ms Stela's really psyched about this..weird.
I hope Our plans will work out, jay and I.
I hope I get to enjoy both the workshop and him.
after that. I dunno.
I'm thinking the wheel will turn again. And I'm back to licking my wounds...most probably ma-abli nasad...in my solitude...
Hey....the healing's there but I dunno how long it'll last...maybe I'll run out of medication...before they totally close.
still haven't contacted the yoga center. Am I procrastinating or my is my hesitation telling me something...Is my spirit telling me not to go through with this overhaul?
SAw Jason today, told him to be my spiritual adviser....I'm still confused why he's still studying when all he can talk about is priesthood.good for him.
I was slightly depressed in the morning...woke up really early and realized it was James' birthday.
My pa and Ma had a bout on the dining table. Keilah's operation costs 100 thousand...off my mom's paycheck...how the hell are we supposed to survive with pa's pension money? only God knows...
My powers yet again were at work...it was totally sunny when I woke up...then I realized what I realized and saw what I saw and heard what I heard and voila! we have nimbus clouds! texted larry bout it..
I put on bjork...."cocoon"...what the hell am I doin?
got this terracotta frog... looked at the map of middle-earth... an exhausted painting...puking pearls....stabbing myself.
then I got angry and got sad and then I thought of the incomprehensible and realized I still don't get everything....
everything that was taken back through mere words....
and I am utterly bewildered..
I sleep...
Wake up and realize I am sooo hungry.
mood shifts.
Went to school.
saw liyo.
saw jason.
saw my grades.
blogged.
Chose life.
