Just when I thought everything was gonna crumble...

...I get a postcard from heaven saying, "Russ, breathe and let the universe take care of itself...even you." I'm not saying everything's come into place, I'm saying I'm breathing and I'm feeling life running through me again. And that I'm seeing once again the things and I want to do and therefore need to do. I've gone increasingy passionate about my painting, I have this voice inside me saying "Go get them!" and I feel like I am going to and that it's just a matter of time.

Important:

Vera, Pat, Liyo (I'm still mad at you for pushing me), Yen, Gaying, Badidi and Genno, God,...

THANKS for (respectively)

listening to me rant, being the quiet lake that you are-comforting and calm, for making the Epson dances possible, for the hugs, for appearing, for the laughs, for BEING.

These are the people I can think of now.
I still hope everything's gonna be at least fine and at most great. Super Perfundo!