If another gay person tells me he's gonna overcome his gayness...I won't join that gay exhibit na. Kinda Ironic isn't it? I'm actually thinkning of not doing it. Maybe this is the best refusal. Doing this would mean more contact, more contact would mean, more agitation. and I have to say I'm too exhausted for that. i saw his picture(not wilson's) and I had this funny numbness in my system. Probably because of wilson. . he took me for a trip to life and then poof! I'm back to reality again and then i come here and see egghead's pic and "un"feel this. Maybe this is exhausting me, dealings with heart. Dealing with men. DEaling with anyone for that matter. there is little room left for just living with people, you have to deal with everyone, everything. everything has some sort of baggage to it. crappy crap crap. i told wilson all I could muster, I hope I won't see a closet next time i see him.
I paid 50 for reloading twice...all globe could send me was this message of apology telling me to try again later but wasn't this noon later?
I have to send pat my report outline.
screw the universe.
