Don't have much to say. Maybe this list(again) will do.
I :
1. am stuffed, just ate lunch
2. am overloaded with work
3. can't seem to get to my e-mail account
4. wish this limbo stage will stop
5. am frustrated coz I can't see james' nude pics in my mail
6. am still in isolation, I'm getting the hang of it
7. have detached myself from most my friends
8. have been ok since
9. don't miss a lot of people so much
10. am not going to be held under everyone else's circumstances.
11. hate the people breathing down my neck presently
12. want to break this pc unit into pieces coz I can't get to my mail account.
13. Want to say happy anniversary to my blog. insignificant little blog. but a blog nontheless
14. don't want some people around me anymore.
15. think philosophizing your actions is downright stupid.
16. think you are not divine.
17. think you are dumb and selfish
18. love the way you hold your hair
19. like talking to you over food and drinks
20. loved dancing with all of you last week
21. wish you'd realize your dumbness
22. am sick of your voice and your contradictory and borrowed principles
23. hate your guts
24. wish we had sex more than we did.
25. wish you'd stop counting on me.
26. wish you'd stop caring.
27. wish you won't blame me for your actions
28. want you to leave me alone.
29. want you to start changing and stop pretending
30. want all of you to think about what you've done to everyone else
31. want to be healthy again, like not skinny.
32. want you to know I love your skinnyness
33. AM sick of talking to other depressives, no thanks.
34. wish you'd stop blaming yourself.
35. want you to get a life.
36. like the awkwardness between us that we try to overlook
37. hate it when you're drunk coz you get my hopes up.
38. wish you'd get out of that group and find yourself, your true fucked up self and start fixing it.
39. want all of you to realize we are all fucked up but it's ok coz we're still alive so we better not waste time.
40. want to find another place.
41. want you to stop reading me and start reading yourselves.
42. am content with my aloneness but I don't mind spending time with some of you.
43. am wet all over because of the rain
44. can smell blood in my mouth from my gums.
45. am wearing the skull hanky round my wrist again.
46. will not stop until everything's done for school and the exhibit.
47. want to start on all the paintings right now.
48. will show you art.
49. will blow all of you away.
50. will turn this city into a cemetary.
51. got my email account back. YAHOO indeed.
