Last night...
1. was the joya awarding and opening ceremony...didn't win, pat was a finalist though so yey. congrats pat
2. loaded tarahashi's phone worth 25...he returned it
3. was Dalai Lama at the crazy day and officiated the ceremonies...that was fun
4. danced alone the lousiest performance i've ever made coz liyo didn't show up because of a STUPID BLIND DATE...fuck ya
5. drank with chai ... apologies for my preoccupation...
6. cried to chai's song for me..."demon" "...it's easier to be insincere...believe...believe..."
7. talked with ariel and pat for the longest time...thank God that happened finally
8. saw James...at least i saw him...Abdul and him watched a painting together...jealous mode.
9. texted Tarahashi til almost 2. I told him I liked looking at him better without a top on.
10. felt excruciatingly awkward at the ceremonies...loser mode.
I wanna duck now and die... It's not the idea of death that invites me, what's after that is more exciting...whatever it is. There are dishes flying in the air. I don't know who's throwing them, i do know they're aimed at me...
