Fourth Departure and YELLOW

This post has nothing to do with the color. I don't know if I can beat the deadline for Siliman. Patay. And I thought I'd be more prepared this year. This chairmanship thing is beginning to take over my time and my thoughts, there is so much to think about. The facilitator's workshop starts next week and the art workshop the week after. I get sleepy earlier now, my eyes seem to have a mind of their own, forcing themselves shut so I can succumb to their wishes and lay them fast in the darkness.

Had a fight with J on YM. Tarahashi is sailing home at the moment. Saw chai and Liyo, they wanted to hang out, I could have but I didn't. I didn't start looking for Vera either or Yen. I haven't heard from James at all, I'm starting to miss him again. Pat just came back from Dumaguete. I feel like my friends are carrying these compunctions about each other and that most of us are in this state of lachrymosity. I am inclined to say that maybe, maybe I am avoiding people and I'm starting to experience its effects, I feel very singular now. I still have to figure out what's happening to me and everyone else. I sense a great change in our lives and it only makes sense(sense nasad) since all three females are graduating and the homosexuals will have stay in school and . Budoy was evicted, I didn't know that til yesterday.

I'm beginning to feel the need for a sensible person to talk to more than ever. I miss sharing deeper thoughts in detail...that sounds kind of disgusting somehow.

Love, Wisdom, and Compassion to all.